Monthly Archives: March 2014

I don’t just want to exist, I want to live.

I want to experience all of the beautiful things this world and it’s people have to offer. I want to exchange stories with strangers in different lands who live completely different lives than anything I could ever imagine. I want to hear their stories of love and loss, of suffering and joy. I want to hear about their conversations with God. I want to be filled with their memories, hopes and dreams. I want to know the history of their land and their people. I want to see the pain in their eyes, the happiness in their smiles, feel the peace in their hearts. I want to cry and laugh with them. I want to fight for their causes. I want to be captivated by the beauty of their soul, I want to fall in love with their cities. I want to swim in their rivers, explore their religions, play with their children. I want to dance in their streets and walk along their beaches. I want to watch their sunsets and make love under their stars.

I feel as if I already love every one of them and the places they live. Now I just want to know them, see them. To understand and experience them.

I want to experience all of this over and over again with an open heart, full of compassion, trust and understanding.

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Desire.

Do you ever feel like you were meant for something more?

I don’t mean a subtle feeling. I mean a desire so strong that you feel it in your soul. A feeling that never really goes away.

I have had that feeling for as long as I can remember.

I can’t say whether this is good or bad. Haven’t figured that out yet. It’s not that I’m never happy with what I have, because I am.

I have always just felt that I needed something more, deeper.

So I’ve been trying to figure out what my needs, desires and wants really are.

What I do know-

I need to experience everything.

I need to create new things.
I need to experience a deeper love than I’ve ever know or ever dreamed of.
I need to eliminate all negative thoughts.
I need to be understood by someone other than myself.
I need to be able to treat everyone with love no matter how they treat me.
I need to see the world. All of it.
I need to be able to be vulnerable. To be open to rejection and pain.
I need to face my fears and accept failure.
I need to know that I tried my best and gave it my all.

I was told recently that I want too much and I am impossible to please.

I don’t think that’s possible. They are my wants, not yours or anybody else’s. I feel like my wants are simple yet others see them as complicated.

Maybe they are complicated. Maybe I am unreasonable.

But I know that I will accomplish all of this and so much more.

I have no doubt.